Tootfinder

One of my reliable turnons is the idea of torturing someone until they're terrified of me. This desire is extremely dissonant with my sense of self.
When desires like that emerged during puberty, it made my teen years miserable with self-hate. It took a long time to get to where I am now, where these desires are just oddities in the museum of me
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gray17 answered: any kink you might disclose?
Vague question deserves an uncomfortable answer about noncon kink. One of my reliable turnons is the idea of torturing someone until they're terrified of me. This desire is extremely dissonant with my sense of self. When desires like that emerged during puberty, it made my teen years miserable from self-hate. It took a long time to get to where I am now, where these desires are just oddities in the museum of me. I'm fine with sectioning that kink off as "weirdly horny fantasy", but (somewhat…